Yesterday, I finally got of school. I was so excited and it was awesome. A lot of things happened. My teachers didn't give us hw and we had a lot of free time. It was so exciting. *sigh*
I can't wait to relax and watch a lot of anime. lol. Btw, yesterday was a really awesome friend's birthday.
Since I wasn't on when it was his birthday. I wanted to say that he is an amazing person. Talking to him really makes me happy because I know that somewhere beyond this world, there is someone who I can talk to. Really... Dreadwing, you are truly a great person. Wish we could meet one day, but I'm too shy to meet people. lol. Well...I hope he enjoyed his birthday.
Sorry that I can't give you a present, since I don't know where you are.
I noticed that my school have A LOT of cats. I really mean it. There's like a whole litter of them. They only appear when it is around 3 pm and everyone is gone. Just today, I saw 4 black cats and they were all babies. When I saw them I ran because I didn't want to get bad luck. I didn't want them to cross in front of me. >.<
I also saw a pure white cat. It was gorgeous, even though I really hate cats.
Remember the last time I talked about a bus talk was orange and has the word yellow bolded. Well... I saw it again. I think it's taunting me!!! I lost the ''Car Game" again because of it. Damn.
I hate being Asian. I know many people keep saying they're proud of their race, but I certainly am not. Being Asian means you have to be really smart in all your subjects except P.E. I really despise myself having to be Asian. Many people around me expects me to be really smart, therefore I feel so much pressure.
The person who pressure me a lot would be my family. I totally hate them now for always pressuring me. I understand there concern for me, but always putting me down is making me feel unsure of myself. The person I hate the most right now is my damn little sister and meanie mom. I really hate my little sister because she's like the replica of my mom. Ugh... They resemble a lot. The one thing they love doing most is being superior. Even my dad isn't superior.
Living with these two annoying people is like living in hell already. My mom is like the devil and my little sister is the follower. One thing my mom loves continuously doing is telling her childhood stories and telling me how grateful I am. I already understand how grateful I am, but there is no need to repeat it 10x to get my full attention. I'm not deaf.
Another thing my mom does is point out all my bad qualities. She keeps putting me down and making herself look good. My mom seems so perfect when she describe herself. When she talks about me to my cousins, she says ALL my bad qualities. She never says anything good about me except when I receive grades. When she talks bad about me, I feel looked down by my relatives. It's because all my cousins are really smart. They take Honors and I don't. Even my little sister takes Honors. That totally sucks.
Since I'm talking about my sister, I will explain why I hate her. She always looks down on me because she takes Honors. I'm suppose to be the elder sister, but she acts that part. Every time I mess up doing something, she's like, "Shut up! Your're annoying." She says that a lot. When she does her homework, it has to be PERFECT. At home she isn't even near perfect!! She always throwing her socks and stuff on table. The person who cleans it up is my mom. In our household, my mom is like the maid of my little sister. I pity my mother for a second there.
Another reason why I hate her is because she's always using my words against myself. For example, when I was little, we only had one computer so we had to take turns. When my lil sister goes on the computer she plays more than me. She's always stalling saying wait! Wait! I'm not done. The most she stalled was about a totally of two hours. That's totally unfair. Another time she did that was when my cousin came over. We each get 30 minutes to play, but apparently my sister didn't follow the rules and she played 45 minutes. She got 15 extra minutes and none of us did. I understand she wants to play, but she should have let my other cousin play. She could have waited for her next turn, but noooo. She had to do her game stuff. *sigh* Just a while ago, she told me I was stalling. I'm like... fuck her. Like she has the right to tell me I'm stalling when she made me suffered during when I was little.
Yet another "hate" reason about my lil sister. Like I said, she loves bringing me down like my mother. Like at the morning, me and her were late for school and got detention. During lunch she told me that it's my fault for making her late. She was like saying she should go to the counsel and tell them why she was late so I only get the detention and she doesn't. I'm like Damn you! After school, she puts me down yet again.
She's like I don't want detention on my pernament record. The college wouldn't like it. I told her that the college doesn't exactly count detention except suspension and other stuff. She's like... well, it's your fault. I don't want to have a stupid detention on my record. I'm not like you. I don't plan on going to a stupid university, I am going to UCLA.
And that's how our conversation end. My sister must be so proud of herself for just insulting all students who aren't in HONORS like her. I totally hate honors because they look down on people who aren't in honors. Same goes to my relatives. *glare*
I swear... one day I am going to a depression clinic.
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